I also thought that I was going through a mental breakdown two years ago when I first started having doubts. One day I led the group in fs but when we got to the territory I used the odd number present to go on my own. While the others were knocking on doors I was sitting in my car, unable to bring myself to go. I have been out once or twice since, have resigned as an elder, and limp along as I have a bible study, with whom I actually try to stress general principles rather than specific jw doctrine. I have voiced some doubts to my wifem but she calls 'apostate' if it gets too close to the bone. Be careful out there!
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Tired of the truth... Tired of doubting
by Deltawave ini'm reaching out here, i've known ttatt for about 3-4 years now.
sadly when i first grasped it i had a total mental breakdown as i was a hard core firm to the core pioneer and 110% believer of my faith.!
now nearly 2years on after my breakdown i still have to attend to please my jw wife.
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Horrible Bosses
by John Aquila ini just heard this a few minutes ago by a jw friend who is still an elder in my old hall.
the kingdom hall i used to attend and my mom still attends was paid off many years ago and serves about 6 congregations.
one of the english congregations has a lot of financially well of members.
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Two points I would like to comment on. Long before the latest money stories our cong had a deficit. Once, all the elders and servants were required to give 30 euros each to make it up. Not too long ago we again had a shortfall and one of the elders suggested doing the same thing again. I refused as I argued that not just the appointed men but the whole cong were responsible to contribute. So it was shelved the second time around. Got to agree also that now I am no longer an elder it is great not to have to attend interminable after meeting meetings, getting harangued by the CO, and no ridiculous in fighting amongst the BOE to deal with. Sweet freedom! -
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Being marginalised by JW's and family, how to combat it?
by Crazyguy inwhen one leaves the religion and fades it starts to become obvious that they move on with out you but this is not enough for them so they also marginalize you, loose respect for you etc.
they even tell stories about you.
example my wife talking to my mother tells her that i now believe aliens came to this planet and created man.
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FayeDunaway I have to agree with you completely. I am still an active Witness but am stepping back from all the watching all that I say and think and do. All for appearance. I used to constantly worry about what others would think. When I stepped back and REALLY thought about it, how many of those I worried about offending were close friends? Not many. I was worried about keeping up appearances for people I didn't know well or even care about, but they were part of the 'whole package' I had to buy into. I resigned as an elder last year but the bros want me to stay involved and maybe go back as an elder. But now that I know... -
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Can't sign out!
by stillin inmy wife has recently become very curious about my activity on my ipad.
i delete my browsing history but if she should discover this site and my identity here, she will gladly hand me over to the hangman, something i have managed to avoid for quite some time now,.
i hit the "sign out" button, but i find that i'm still logged in!
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My wife also often asks me "what are you reading on your tablet?" She suspects that my recent expressions of doubt about various things WT may be connected to what I am reading but she hasn't come right out and said it directly.
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i committed the unforgiveable sin
by 060702015 ineveryday i wake up with knots in my stomach and trouble breathing.
my life continues to go into a downward spiral.
in the past, i had my dependence on god.
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Millie2010
Lovely post. Short, to the point, and loving.
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Christ's Fake Brothers - Tomorrow's WT Study
by The Searcher intomorrow's wt study, paragraph 4 says this - "the early bible students understood the expression rendered in the king james version "my brethren" to refer to those who would rule with christ as well as to all of mankind after they are restored to earthly perfection.".
rutherford decided in 1923 to change this teaching, and create an elite group of christians.
for 92 years the men running the wtbts have perpetuated & embellished this false teaching - especially so during the past three years - and hidden the bible truth about christ's brothers from millions of people fearful to question the org - created doctrine!.
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I told my wife that I couldn't go to the study as there was not one paragraph that I could agree with or comment on. Even my mother-in-law who doesn't notice anything has registered the amount of begging for money that goes on these days. This in your face stupidity about donations and blind obedience is even causing otherwise oblivious people to think a bit. -
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Bro Loesch's talk.
by New day inrecently i heard through video link to our kh a talk by bro loesch where he attacked university study (again) but this time he prefaced his remarks by saying, and i quote, "the faithful slave does not forbid you to go to university.
" so this was a bad start as his following remarks made it clear that this was just a way of seeming reasonable while basically saying that we shouldn't do it.
he went on to use an illustration i think he has used before about a man with ocd who decided to kill himself.
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Recently I heard through video link to our KH a talk by Bro Loesch where he attacked university study (again) but this time he prefaced his remarks by saying, and I quote, "the faithful slave does not forbid you to go to university." So this was a bad start as his following remarks made it clear that this was just a way of seeming reasonable while basically saying that we shouldn't do it. He went on to use an illustration I think he has used before about a man with OCD who decided to kill himself. He shot himself in the head but didn't die and the effect of the bullet actually cured his OCD. His warning was not to try something really risky (like university) as you might survive but was it worth the risk? He also compared it to someone who might survive a swim in shark-infested waters but , again, why do it? He sounded so arrogant, a sort of smiling assassin when he deigned to say the slave was not forbidding this ,but...He also counseled against even young children having any friends or playmates who are not children of Witnesses and encouraged parents to push their kids to become unbaptizes publishers at 7 or 8 and without mentioning it directly the inference was that they would also get baptized at a young age. -
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1919 Doctrine no longer exists? (Today's Watchtower Study)
by FusionTheism inquote from today's watchtower study article that's being studied at the halls (march 15, 2015, page 24):.
"understanding the illustration of the talents".
"when the master rewards the slaves.".
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I can't remember if I read it on another thread here or elsewhere but somebody mentioned that in this and similar parables the entrusting of responsibility to the slaves begins when the Master leaves, which in Jesus' case was in the first century. If the inspection is still future then 1919 has no part to play at all. -
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by New day insomebody on another thread suggested that those still in could express their opinions on steven lett's performance.
i am still in and i was shocked, dismayed and saddened by it.
i became a witness over 30 yrs ago and the issue of donations was a non-issue for so many years.. now, it is a huge one for the org.
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Somebody on another thread suggested that those still in could express their opinions on Steven Lett's performance. I am still in and I was shocked, dismayed and saddened by it. I became a Witness over 30 yrs ago and the issue of donations was a non-issue for so many years.
Now, it is a huge one for the org. How could the GB imagine they would get away with it? Do they really take us for morons? We are thinking, feeling human beings. We have a brain to work out when we are being taken advantage of. The destruction in my confidence in the GB started two years ago with many of the doctrinal changes, accelerated with this latest donation insanity, and is capped by the completely illogical and scripturally unsupported series of wt articles from the May 15 study articles that we start this wknd. God help us. We need it.
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"Normal family affections and dealings" continue - If only?!?
by LHS123 ini am new to this forum - it is only a couple of weeks since i have allowed myself to acknowledge and research my doubts.
i am trying to be fair by reading both sides of the story and considering jw official explanation of confusing matters.
one of the issues i have been looking at is shunning - and i was shocked to see the misleading information about shunning on the jw.org website: .
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My sister faded years ago and I treat her exactly the same as I ever did (I am still an active Witness) , and her two Witness closest friends keep in close contact with her (they knew each other from childhood before becoming Witnesses). So some people follow their own conscience and do not just blindly follow all the very heavy hints dropped by the org.